Wednesday, December 29, 2010

Ending the year,

I found myself being on the phone with someone, laughing on the phone with someone until my tummy hurts, my cheeks hurt. I also found myself ignoring your phone calls. Don't keep your eyes and attention off a bad girl, she might not be there the next time you look. She will be gone in a blink of an eye. Please don't take your eyes off of her, you're making a terrible mistake for doing so.
Back to being used to not checking my phone anymores. Congrats to me, I didn't needa be getting used to anything new and different.
Well anyways, good news, I'll be spending my New Year's Eve with my bestfriend. That's all I'll be needing. Since its my mom's birthday, I won't be able to go to any parties and such. But hey, I'm fine with not getting drunk and trashed up for the New Year.

Wednesday, December 22, 2010

Christmas In The Park, 2010.


Happiness doesn't come around that often for me. So I shall make the most out of it while it lasts.

Saturday, December 4, 2010





I am reminded of you<3.

Friday, December 3, 2010

A new thing that can prove to me that there IS such thing as,

different. I guess in some way.
Well, honestly, since I was high and I don't exactly remember much about what happened,
You're now less on my mind.
Sorry to say that.
We should have stayed sober.
We should not have stayed in a room together.
Even though we didn't...
Wanting you physically now just somewhat overpowers me wanting you mentally.
But right now, I'll update on what's been up for the past week:
I was so sprung over this 'him'. The sweetest thing.
Where has he been all my life.
And fuck my life, why did I say yes to weed.
Although I did remember that one kiss. You know, the one that got my heart to burn up and me to get lightheaded..
I wouldn't have remembered it if you didn't mention it.

I honestly don't want that.
I don't want you to be just any of my past guys and I also don't want to be just any girl.
I genuinely like you and am very into you.
That is the reason why I want to move slow.
I don't want to fuck.
I want something with passion in it.
I have so much pride in myself that I can actually somewhat control myself when I'm around you.
A bit.
But its been awhile since I've encountered a wild thing like you. Wild, but sweet.
Passionate, filled with want and need and desire. A lot of fire but also a lot of cooling down that was needed.
I'm sprung.

Someone slap me. Tell me its okay for me to be happy for once.
Tell my its okay to fall.
Because I do not want to hold my guard up for him.
For he did not make the mistakes that the past has made.

Lucky guy, caught me when I'm down to fall for a nice guy. When I'm down to commit. When I'm down to you know, just wear my heart on my sleeve.

Infatuation has taken over my system.
Call me crazy.