Interesting days.

It might not be quite interesting to others but compared to my regular days, its pretty insane. Ok, not insane, but its something good. Not having a car is a bummer and a hassle. I can't drive anywhere. I feel like I've lost my legs. That's a bit too exaggerated. Anyways, lately, I've been sharing a side of me that I usually just keep to myself to someone that I've only really known for a little over a month. Don't get it twisted now, I'm not too crazy. Not too sprung. Just calm. And pretty interested. The girls show interest when I mention you, talk of you. Its nothing too grand. Its believable. The girls questions whether it is a fling or if its serious. Well, it has been only a short period of time, but hey I'll tell you, its been a pretty great short period of time and I don't think I've wasted it. I don't waste my time on flings. If I wanted it to be a fling, I would not waste my time even talking. Its been nice to click with someone pretty quick. At the same time, this process is scaring me and I find my find myself sometimes retracting into my own little shell. I'm not the type to be cared for. I'm not a long-term relationship girl. I'm a month, a weekly typa love. I'm the girl that will make you crazy for a month or so. I'm the type of girl that will believe in crazyness-- that crazyness will never last. You can like me but you will never love me. If you ever make me fall, you'll end up being in-hate with yours truly here. I am not lying, although I might be able to catch myself saying that I will not lie about being honest. Honestly, I'll be damned lying. We are not two peas in a pod. Don't ever call us that because I do not believe in perfection. I stand for myself, not for you. Selfish should not be the word to describe me. I am more selfless than any other. My heart is literal. My mind is concrete. I will not think outside of the box but I am quite open minded and open to new ideas. I will and can only understand if you are logically correct. Don't tell me something 'just because' and don't give me reasons followed by and I-don't-know. You know, and you will find it. No one is ever worth it so don't tell me that I am worth it. Do you and I'll do me. Love me later, but in the meantime, decode me. I am predictable and simply insane. I am no psychotic bitxh. I'm kind. I'm not nice. I'm soft inside that is why I have a hard shell. I am not hard to get, although you just have to let me relax and let you in. I don't see you any different than the others yet. In my eyes, you are you. Please don't get confused. Word for word, is not the way to understand me. Read between the lines, the silence, the pauses. Don't pay too close of attention to my word choices. Good day, to you.

The XX-Night Time

Thanks, Sean.

Ahead of time,

The rest of March

• JA teaching
• Send in SFSU housing app asap!
• Ahill Fantastics 3/18
• Accel orientation 3/23

April

• Send in the 'yes' for SFSU 4/1
• Class schedules are out 4/1 
• No school 4/8
• SF orientation date (choose classes) 4/9 
• Alex's 20th. 4/15 
• Prom 4/16

May

•  Ahill graduation 5/25 (?)
• Graduation 5/27

June

•  Start work again @ Mountain View Pharmaceuticals
• Best's 17th birthday
• My 18th birthday

July

• I have absolutely no idea. 
• 4th of July 7/4 

August

• Move in date for SFSU! 8/17
• First day of Fall Semester @ SFSU 8/23 

Sex appeal,

I've got a bit of that in me and I'm not afraid to flaunt it.

Chan,

=)