Friday, May 31, 2013

You're more in love with the memories than the person standing in front of you.

Monday, May 20, 2013

Comparison?

My nightmare just came true in my nightmare.
I have never woke up in such pain before.
I've died before.
But death's pain could not compare to the one I felt just now.
I don't know if the pain was felt in my dream or when I woke up.
Or both.

But right now, all the ecstasy, the coke, the weed, the cigarettes, the pain killers...
none.
none of those can get rid of this pain.
Its giving me this uneasy feeling in my stomach.
Taking a shit won't even solve this gut feeling.
Not even throwing up.
Strain, misery, torture, burn, all electrified.


Saturday, May 18, 2013

You shrug and its the worse.
Who truly stuck the knife in first

But,

"
But
if each day,
each hour,
you feel that you are destined for me
with implacable sweetness,
if each day a flower
climbs up to your lips to seek me,
ah my love, ah my own,
in me all that fire is repeated,
in me nothing is extinguished or forgotten,
my love feeds on your love, beloved,
and as long as you live it will be in your arms
without leaving mine
"

Strange,

:Metamorphosis.
;When the caterpillar thought its life has ended, it turned into a butterfly.
:Free to flutter.
127

:Small chance.
;Small chance is still a chance. And life is too short to not take chances.
126

:Well I miss thinking about nothing while staring at you.






Past tense.

Tuesday, May 14, 2013

180/

for the devil,
the devil within me. you.
I.
take a lookandsee.


what have you done to yourself.
who are you now, my little devious angel.
not him.
the devilish smile of yours that once was permanent.
has now...

who are you now
not him.
lilith.
satan.

don't lie to yourself now.
i know you know.
speak your thoughts.
out loud.

in your head.

Tuesday, May 7, 2013

Clock in,
clocked out.