'Flect,

I see you.
In front of me.
But through those dark eyes so familiar.
Similar.
I see me.
Not physically.
Its...the mind.
I see a mind like mine.
Fascinating, dark, kept, mysterious, open.
Contradictions.
I can read your silence so clearly.
But the uncertainty will always cause me to retract.
To doubt.
This is kind of like looking into a mirror.
And seeing a reflection is normal.
But seeing your reflection talk back can be a lot for anyone to take in.
I've always wondered.
Y'know?
How it'd be like to date yourself.
I always thought.
Hey,
how can I expect anyone else to understand me when even I couldn't understand myself.
Hypocrite.
Me.
But you.
Though.
Different but somehow everything just makes sense..
In a way.
Clear but the same time confusing.
Iffy.
Unsure.
Comfortable but that comfort can get very uncomfortable.
At least for me.
Fuck.
I smile.
Relax, I tell myself that and so I try that.
Damn.
Its a nice feeling.
No. Don't.
Yes. Please.
I don't know if I know or not.
I want to stop.
But I want to keep going.
I can't lose something I don't have though.
Then why am I frightened.
Look away.
Damn emotions.
Why'd I let it get in the way.
Go away. I don't need it.
But stay for another minute, would you?
No I couldn't ask. The other one shouldn't ask.
The other one just takes what one can.
Another other.

Stop.
Just forget about it.

Time,

taking its toll.

Still,

aches from time to time.
D.
Sigh.

Deter,

What good will end.
Choice of the ending.
What bad shall also end.
Or choice of continuing.

Do I have determination?
Or motivation?
Both?
One or the other?
Or none at all.

Records show,

that I can love the best and make it worthwhile.
then why is the present not reflecting the past.
why are we setting fire to the rain.

Autumn this time around,

I can't tell the difference.

Kaskade feat. Martina of Dragonette - Fire In Your New Shoes

Identity,

find it within you.
find it surround your mind and body.
Soak it in and love.

Birthday.

June24, happy 17th best.
June 25, 18th, yours truly.

Flowing with insane fire,

 

 Days has been going smoothly. 

A bit of madness.

Insane.

Insanity.

Heat.

Passion.

Magnetized.

Cravings.

Fulfillments.

Although nights have been a bit more lonely,

patience can get a little hint of tension.

Side note: I found my new roommate for my upcoming semester at San Fran State! Jodie Esaki. Can't wait.

Shine,

you shine through to me.

Fake,

When smiles are so big, when happiness is just plainly just in the smile,
the fire inside burns brightest,
the fire to burn,
from inside to the outside,
slowly
kept in.

Graduation day,

was yesterday.
Invited was the people I cared most about.
Well, except the parentals.
So a chapter of my life has come to an end.
But there shall be a next continuing chapter.
I wonder what the future has in store for me.
I crave the freedom that lies ahead of me.
The success that comes along after that.
The achievements.
And the pay offs.
Years from today, I sorta wonder who and how I'd be.
Would my best friend now still be my best friend then?
Or...
Would the people that matter now still matter later on?
I've got no idea.
But hey,
moving forward may be scary,
but going back is comparable to death.
Childhood.
Adolescence.
Adulthood.
Metamorphosis.

Jazz.

We're under the sheets and you're killing 
me.

I adore you. 

Proposal,

I said I wouldn't get married.
Or have kids.
And I'd only get married just to get married.
And wear the dress.
And go on a honeymoon.
But I think,
I'll say yes to the love only if,
love proposes with a darling snake ring.
Daring.
Love.