Does not,

Something
someone
not many.
know how to love this one.
as others walk away,
there where this one stands.
stands tall.
as tall as this wall.
as this wall seems to fall.
this one is all ready to save the fall.
watch.
watch this one break that fall.
see.
see that fall come crumbling down on
her.
crushed.

try saving that,
dare.

Stay,

All along it was a fever
A cold sweat hot-headed believer
I threw my hands in the air, said, "Show me something,"
He said, "If you dare come a little closer."

Round and around and around and around we go
Oh now tell me now tell me now tell me now you know

Not really sure how to feel about it.
Something in the way you move
Makes me feel like I can't live without you.
It takes me all the way.
I want you to stay

It's not much of a life you're living
It's not just something you take – it's given

Ooh the reason I hold on
Ooh cause I need this hole gone
Funny you're the broken one but I'm the only one who needed saving
Cause when you never see the light it's hard to know which one of us is caving

You're more in love with the memories than the person standing in front of you.

Comparison?

My nightmare just came true in my nightmare.
I have never woke up in such pain before.
I've died before.
But death's pain could not compare to the one I felt just now.
I don't know if the pain was felt in my dream or when I woke up.
Or both.

But right now, all the ecstasy, the coke, the weed, the cigarettes, the pain killers...
none.
none of those can get rid of this pain.
Its giving me this uneasy feeling in my stomach.
Taking a shit won't even solve this gut feeling.
Not even throwing up.
Strain, misery, torture, burn, all electrified.

You shrug and its the worse.
Who truly stuck the knife in first

But,

"
But
if each day,
each hour,
you feel that you are destined for me
with implacable sweetness,
if each day a flower
climbs up to your lips to seek me,
ah my love, ah my own,
in me all that fire is repeated,
in me nothing is extinguished or forgotten,
my love feeds on your love, beloved,
and as long as you live it will be in your arms
without leaving mine
"

Strange,

:Metamorphosis.
;When the caterpillar thought its life has ended, it turned into a butterfly.
:Free to flutter.
127

:Small chance.
;Small chance is still a chance. And life is too short to not take chances.
126

:Well I miss thinking about nothing while staring at you.






Past tense.

180/

for the devil,
the devil within me. you.
I.
take a lookandsee.


what have you done to yourself.
who are you now, my little devious angel.
not him.
the devilish smile of yours that once was permanent.
has now...

who are you now
not him.
lilith.
satan.

don't lie to yourself now.
i know you know.
speak your thoughts.
out loud.

in your head.

Clock in,
clocked out.

Places,

that we will go
wanted to go
thought of going.
will turn into places.
just places
that we should've gone.
I don't like that.
Let's make it places,
that we've been to.

White noise

"We were like strangers who knew each other very well"

Please,
if words cannot be used,
spoken.
Kiss.
Yes! A kiss, a kiss can be your question if you wonder.
Or the answer,
the answer I'm looking for.
The answer I'd love to hear,
or fear.
Either or,
kiss.

Once in a blue moon,

special will make his way to you.
Its your decision to whether accept his offer or let it slide.
Whether or not you will let him hang around or dismiss him early.
And if you let him stick around,
its also Special's choice to make...
if he wants to make the best out of that time.
If you know how to appreciate it.
And if so..
If so.
Sobeit,
And so we go on.

It all makes sense now,

“In a sense, I’m the one who ruined me: I did it myself.”

Haruki Murakami

Washed,

And all the negativity in me just disappeared.
Washed away.
Like the ocean.
Only this time,
it didn't come back.
It got lost.
In the sea.
All that matters.
All that I am left with
now
is anything but.