Picnic

was wack.

I dont want finals to come. I dont want tests to come. I want the teachers to stop piling hw and projects on me. I dnt wanna run 6 laps for pe final. I dont want to go to the satprep classes. I wanna go to Inde's last dance &grad w/ bestfriend. I want to celebrate my birthday. I wanna shop more. I dont want to be sick. I dont know if I should be excited about the school year ending. I want my braces off. I want to dye my hair. I want to go to the beach. I dont want to keep on making new friends even tho its nice. I want to leave ahill. I want my new start. I dont want to leave the people I just got close to this year. I want to dance. I want to take control. I want other people to stop talking about me. I want him to LIKE me. I dont want to be JUST a fling, although I know we'r only just that. I want to stop myself. I want to be a mystery. I dont want my fat gut tummy. I want to be skinny and fit again. I want to go back to doing tkd because thas the only thing that kept me fit. I want cheesecake. I want 20/20 vision, I wish. I want to stop making wrong paths in life. I want to stop falling for assholes. I want success in life. I dont want to keep my rep. I want coffee ice cream. I dont wanna be sick. I want to go out more. i want to be able to enjoy my youth w/o my parents stopping me. I want to be able to be myself around guys I like. I want that butterfly feeling again. I want straight A's for a change. I want a singing voice. I want at least one talent. I want to be talller. I dont want to be blonde. I want people to understand why I do the things I do. I just want. But I don't want.