So I was just sitting here,

w/ a blank document for this blog. Just staring at the blank page for a minute or so. Listening to the WEDDING DRESS girl version on Youtube.... Even though its short. Its been on replay ever since the first time I heard it. I love a song w/ lyrics. Actually lyrics. Not the type where throughout the song they keep on repeating the title. Shit, that shits annoying as fuck. But lyrics that have the power to affect or cause. That triggers an emotion, then changes your entire mood.


So like. I like how Besth remembers my favorite flower and ice cream. =) And psh,I only hadda mention it once! I needa go see Avatar in 3D before break ends I swear. Im feeling like I'm missing out on alla the news and shit.

Speaking of ice cream and flowers....Im wanting some. And a movie. And cuddle sitting up. Under a warm blankie and warming each other's feet. =) Sounds hellllla warm right?

Gawd, I'ms still unsure if I want school to start or nots. S'lika seeeeesaaaw.

What more may I possibly ask for,

I'd be an idiot to lose her. She's the living proof of a whole unbroken heart. Man, she is so indescribable in sooo many ways. What other people call their 'other half'. Their 'opposite'. The angel of the devil. My left hand. My best friend.

Blame it on the pop

I.AM.CRAAAAAAAAZZZZZZZY. OVER THIS ONE.

Girl's got the shivers,

the shudders, the chillz. Winter's doin its job it seems.

“You’re completely unaware of the effect you have on me.”

— Dan Humphrey, Gossip Girl


Y'know there are REASONS behind why I keep watching this show.

I just received a FS question,

now I've got doubts. Ugh! I wanna pull my fucking hair out. Shit! So much for,_____. Arrggggggggg. Heartpounding, thumping, racing, headthrobbing, beating, spinning.





Whatever, I had a good day today. Despite that fact. That fact of you, that I just received.

Love never tasted so bitter when you kissed me with the tongue of a liar.

I lie too. But see here, I'ma hypocrite.

You just proved to me,

that every guy is the same.

@least the ones that I've been through.




The thing about me though, I'm the nice girl.

Yknow,

trying to get me jealous doesn't work. It only works if you don't try. Smiling at my girls and ignoring me and pretending you don't see me doesn't do shit really.. It just ticks me off that you're actually trying that. But fuck, I miss you. So so so much. Every love song reminds me of you. Every love story, movie reminds me of you. Everything, almost.. reminds me of you in some way. Face's remind me of you. Anywhere where you have been, we have been reminds me of you. Fuck. I can't be thinking of you. I can't be checking up on you every other day. When I'm w/ him, hugging him kissing him holding his hand... I want it, wish it was you. Still. I'm not going to go back and beg for you, talk to you though. We are both stubborn people. We have that in common, we have much more in common also. We clicked. You pretty boy. I love you. But I have to let go, I must. Thas what's wrong w/ me. I always have trouble letting go. I'm still hurt. I tell myself you're over w/me. I'm pretty sure you are. Thas why I have to do the same. I...don't know. I miss it when we love. When we hug and kiss. Every single little detail. I never left off. I peek when we kiss, guilty. I love the passion we have. When we make love. Actually make love. When your fingers tangle in my hair. Along my skin. My neck, and chin. Ah kill me.



I hate my parents. I hate it when they bring you up. What kinda parents are those!? I swear.

I love my girls. So much.

I wish I had that guts,

I reallly wish I did. To tell you how much I miss you.



But I just found out you're already talking to someone else.
Uhm... =)? I guess I'm glad.


(Imagine how I felt and reacted when I first heard so)

Y'know,

I don't like being forgotten. I know I'm a bit self centered. But I like it when I'm thought of. It makes me feel wanted.




I wished you thought of me still.

Deep,

deep breath. Boys, guys, men, 'gentlemen'... ALL.THE.SAME.


Prove me wrong.

Maybe there's a chance,

you're stuck on me too.

Always logged on,
hoping you've checked my profile, blogs, etc.

Maybe its true, I'm caught up on you.
Maybe its all in my head.



Why can't you do me a favor and put everything of yours on private. You're killing me here, this cat. This curious cat.

Deleted scenes,

I deleted my last post. I don't think that blogspot is a smart place to share my most secretive thoughts, feelings, emotions. Xanga has a privacy button, therefore I have reposted it on there. Some people may be able to read it, but not all. Mm, so my thoughts run a whole lot and fast at night. When I'm almost sleepy and all. My mind starts racing. Oh god I have never hated thinking so much in my whole life before til nows. I don't want those thoughts. I try my best to shut off my brain, so I can just sleep soundly. I think I've lost my sense of feelings. Its possible you know that? I learned it in Psych class. Funny how I even know that, I barely pay attention in class. But yeah, for example. I know I'm supposed to FEEL a certain way when something occurs or comes up. I just don't feel it. Shall I call it numbness? I'm not sure.

I haven't gaven up on something in a long while. But now, at this phase I'm practically giving up on almost everything. My school work is what's bothering me. I used to be top of the class, believe it or not. I used to be the one that was trying to push all of my other friends in the right path. Funny, yes. I'm actually a really caring person. I've always been the type to put others before my own self. People tell me I shouldn't do so, its not that healthy for you. Yeah of course I know. I have my own moments where I think to myself and all. Ask myself questions, answer them myself in differnt views, perspectives. I remember, I used to be the one others came to for advice, on anything. Because I've been through most, yeah I'm still young. But I've been through enough, too much for a 16 year old, is what most adults would say if they knew. Only if.

I don't know why I'm typing right now, a bit more than I usually do nowadays. I wonder if I miss who I used to be.. Is who I used to be, good...or bad(?) I think things I say don't always make sense to people. I have a way w/ words, especially mine. Hm, I don't want to be such an emotional person. But I guess I can't exactly always stop it. In person, I'm not that deep of a person, I've lost touch of my deep side. I guess you can put it that way.

I'm not sure who I'm typing to, but I'm just typing whatever comes to mind before my photo class @915. I haven't shot pictures in a while. I've lost motivation. I forgot ever since when, but I'm pretty sure I did. I wonder if its him. Nah....yeah....He was practicallly the only person that believed in me, no matter what. He was the reason why I tried. Because I knew I was smarter than him in a way. I'm not saying this to offend anybody whatsoever. I sorta wanted to set an example for him to follow. He didn't know WHAT to do w/ his life, his knowledge and such. I want him to do better because I knew he could. And he is! His parents don't believe in him, no. Not as much as I did. And I still do. No matter what. I don't have to have any connection with him in order to beleive in him and support him in my own way, in my own mind. I know he can do anything by himself, for he is a strong human being.

I'm glad, that I don't see him in church anymore. Even if I did, he sure doesn't see me. I sit on the other side of church, in between my girls. So they can block him away from my sight, and my thoughts. Trust me, these girls that I have right now, they are the best. They mean so much to me. I'm glad they understand. I can't be ever more grateful to have them in my life.

I should cut here.

Its my dad's birthday today. He's turning 65. I bet you he's probably as old as your guy's grandpa/ma.

Homecoming09

Much love. Miss much. Unforgettable, them.

"Hated by many, wanted by plenty, disliked by some, but confronted by none."

People,

"people will always come and go, in and out of our lives, but if theyre meant to be part of our lives, no matter what happens, theyll make it back to us, somehow.."


Reallly?

Bestpart,

is to ALWAYS be an insider. Inside exclusive scoop. Never an outsider, never to be.

TUMBLE

keepittiffalicious.tumblr.com


Joining the hype.

L-word,

can't be said, not w/o permission, no. Its possible, if and only if.

BOOOOSHIET

Single,

doesn't always mean 'available'

;souliberation

What’s the fastest way to a man’s heart??

Oh man. I should know this one. Can I state more than one?

The fastest way to a man’s heart is through all 5 senses.

Hearing; We can offer you a better relationship than wat any “friend” can give. Becuz not onlydo u have a friendship with ”ur girl” but we play both parts. A bestfriend and a woman to come home to.

Touching; We will become the sluts u want us to be behind closed doors. Please u in all ways possible and accomplish as many fantazies that we both can. Hey, maybe we can even invent our own sex position?

Tasting; Tasting doesn’t have to mean lip to lip. Or mouth on any organ. Tasting can come in fashion, recipies, taste in music, taste in clothing, ect ect. Who doesn’t love puttin their significant other “on” to any of the above. When you and ur partner have more in common, you tend to enjoy each others company way more. Trust.

Seeing; We must see eye to eye. MEANING, the relationship we carry, must be a 50-50% relationship. No one runs each other. No one demands nothing more or nothing less but equalty. You have ur freedom for things, such as I. No if, and’s or maybe’s. This is also where trust falls in.

And last but not least..

Smelling; Have you ever heard of the phrase “something smell’s fishy?” In order for a relationship to function properly, u must hold trust. Without trust, we will not function. Trust is one of many keys to a beautiful & positive relationship. Note that* Trust equals to confidence. And confidence is key.

In case,

CASE OF THE EX*

Why is it that when couples “move on” and later down the road they become lonely, they tend to run to their ex’s??

OR

Why is it when couples “move on” and later down the road they find somebody else that happends to spark their interests BUT once they argue and fight, they tend seek their ex for a comfort zone??

PEOPLE if you haven’t noticed, this is very unhealthy. This causes confusion. And lots of it. You end up recieving the “oh man you remember that one time…..?” type of reminiscing phone calls instead of the “fuck you! I hate u! I wish I never met u in my life!” convo’s that you’ve had with each other before you both decided to call it QUITS.

Not only does this cause confusion but confusion leads to the “um…babe, I need a break to think this through.” (which I’m sure we’ve all heard.) And that becomes hard to deal with and who ever it is that this is being told to, will obviously be hurt. TAKE NOTE: that this “I need a break” bullshit ass excuse, gives us, the people, the right to have our gaurd up.

In conclusion: If you plan on leaving ur significant other, for any particular reason, and make sure it’s a good one, keep in mind that this is the last and final straw. No ifs, ands or maybes.


http://souliberation.tumblr.com/post/136711091/case-of-the-ex-why-is-it-that-when-couples-move

Jarah Mariano,

Yum, c[;

No mores,

I no longer care so much about disappointing people. So guess what, I will continue to do. What makes me, ME. I think its useless trynna be perfect, trynna be good, trying too hard to be something I'm not. Y'know whats? MMR09, ;] Everybody loves teddybears. Sure you'll love me w/ teddybear eyes.


familiar looking, ain't it? Dnt be scared, don't judge. Wait, even if you do. Oh wells, see if I give a f.

The way I see it,

Frm TiffHang's.

Time killah

[] I am a boy.
[x] I am a girl.
[x] I am shorter than 5’4.
[X] I think I’m ugly sometimes.
[x] I have many scars.
[x] I tan easily.
[x] I wish my hair was a different color.
[] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[] I have a tattoo.
[X] I am self-conscious about my appearance.
[x] I have/I’ve had braces.
[x] I wear glasses.
[X] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free
[X] I’ve been told I’m attractive by a complete stranger.
[] I have more than 2 piercings.
[] I have piercing in places besides my ears.
[ ] I have freckles.

Family/Home Life
[x] I’ve sworn at my parents.
[X] I’ve run away from home.
[] I’ve been kicked out of the house.
[X] My biological parents are together.
[ ] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[x] I want to have kids someday.
{] I’ve lost a child.

School/Work
[X] I’m in school
[] I have a job
[X] I’ve fallen asleep at work/school.
[ ] I almost always do/did my homework.
[] I’ve missed a week or more of school.
[] I’ve been on the Honor Roll within the last 2 years.
[ ] I failed more than 1 class last year.
[] I’ve stolen something from my job.

Embarrassment
[X] I’ve slipped out an “lol” in a spoken conversation.
[x] Disney movies still make me cry.
[X ] I’ve peed from laughing.
[x] I’ve snorted while laughing.
[X] I’ve laughed so hard I’ve cried.
[X] I’ve glued my hand to something.
[X] I’ve had my pants rip in public

Health
[] I was born with a disease/impairment
[ ] I’ve gotten stitches/staples.
[ ] I’ve broken a bone.
[ ] I’ve had my tonsils removed.
[x] I’ve sat in a doctor’s office/emergency room with a friend.
[ ] I’ve had my wisdom teeth removed.
[ ] I had a serious surgery.
[X] I’ve had chicken pox.
[ ] I’ve had measles

Traveling
[x] I’ve driven over 200 miles in one day
[X] I’ve been on a plane.
[] I’ve been to Canada.
[] I’ve been to Mexico
[] I’ve been to Niagara Falls.
[] I’ve been to Japan.
[ ] I’ve celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
[] I’ve been to Europe.
[] I’ve been to Africa.

Experiences
[X] I’ve gotten lost in my city.
{] I’ve seen a shooting star.
[] I’ve wished on a shooting star
[ ] I’ve seen a meteor shower.
[X] I’ve gone out in public in my pajamas.
[X] I’ve pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
[X] I’ve kicked a guy where it hurts.
[X] I’ve been to a casino.
[ ] I’ve been skydiving.
[x] I’ve gone skinny dipping.
[X] I’ve played spin the bottle.
[] I’ve drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
[] I’ve crashed a car.
[] I’ve been skiing.
[X] I’ve been in a play.
[x] I’ve met someone in person from Myspace.
[] I’ve caught a snowflake on my tongue.
[ ] I’ve seen the Northern lights.
[] I’ve sat on a roof top at night.
[X] I’ve played chicken.
[X] I’ve played a prank on someone
[X] I’ve ridden in a taxi.
[] I’ve seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
[X] I’ve eaten sushi.
[] I’ve been snowboarding.

Relationships
[X] I’m single
[] I’m in a relationship
[ ] I’m engaged.
[ ] I’m married.
[X] I’ve gone on a blind date.
[x] I’ve been the dumped more than the dumper.
[X] I miss someone right now.
[X] I have a fear of abandonment.
[ ] I’ve gotten divorced.
[X] I’ve had feelings for someone who didn’t have them back.
[X] I’ve told someone I loved them when I didn’t.
[x] I’ve told someone I didn’t love them when I did.
[X] I’ve kept something from a past relationship.
[x] I’ve had a crush on someone of the same sex.
[x] I’ve had a crush on a teacher.
[X] I am a cuddler.
[X] I’ve been kissed in the rain.
[X] I’ve hugged a stranger.
[x] I have kissed a stranger.

Honesty/Crime
[X] I’ve done something I promised someone else I wouldn’t.
[X] I’ve done something I promised myself I wouldn’t.
[X] I’ve snuck out of my house.
[X] I have lied to my parents about where I am
[x] I am keeping a secret from the world.
[X] I’ve cheated while playing a game.
[X] I’ve cheated on a test.
[] I’ve run a red light.
[] I’ve been suspended from school.
[X] I’ve witnessed a crime.
[] I’ve been in a fist fight.
[] I’ve been arrested.

Drugs/Alcohol
[X] I’ve consumed alcohol.
[ ] I regularly drink.
[] I’ve passed out from drinking.
[] I have passed out drunk at least once in the past 6 months.
[] I’ve smoked weed
[x] I’ve taken painkillers when I didn’t need them.
[] I’ve eaten shrooms.
[x] I’ve popped E.
[ ] I’ve inhaled Nitrous.
[E isnt hard right?] I’ve done hard drugs.
[X] I have cough drops when I’m not sick.
[x] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem.
[ ] I have been diagnosed with clinical depression.
[ ] I have been diagnosed with one or more anxiety disorder.
[X] I shut others out when I’m depressed.
[ ] I take anti-depressants.
[] I have been anorexic or bulimic.
[X] I’ve slept an entire day when I didn’t need it.
[x] I’ve hurt myself on purpose.
[X] I’ve woken up crying.

Death and Suicide
[ ] I’m afraid of dying.
[] I hate funerals.
[x] I’ve seen someone dying.
[] Someone close to me has committed suicide.
[x scary I know] I’ve planned my own suicide
[ ] I’ve attempted suicide.
[ ] I’ve written a eulogy for myself.

Materialism
[x] I own over 5 rap CDs.
[X] I own an iPod or MP3 player.
[ ] I have an unhealthy obsession with anime/manga.
[x] I own multiple designer purses, costing over $100 a piece.
[X] I own something from Hot Topic.
[X] I own something from Pac Sun.
[ ] I collect comic books.
[] I own something from The Gap.
[] I own something I got on e-bay.
[x] I own something from Abercrombie.

Random
[ ] I can sing well.
[x] I’ve stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
[x ] I open up to others easily.
[X] I watch the news.
[ ] I don’t kill bugs.
[ ] I hate hearing songs that sacrifice meaning for the sake of being able to rhyme.
[x] I curse regularly.
[x] I sing in the shower.
[x] I am a morning person.
[ ] I paid for my cell phone ring tone.
[] I’m a snob about grammar.
[ ] I am a sports fanatic.
[x] I twirl my hair
[ x] I have “x”s in my screen name.
[] I love being neat.
[X] I love Spam.
[] I’ve copied more than 30 CD’s in a day
[] I bake well.
[x] My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, red or blue
[X] I’ve worn pajamas to school.
[ ] I like Martha Stewart.
[X] I know how to shoot a gun
[X] I am in love with love.
[] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[X] I laugh at my own jokes.
[X] I eat fast food weekly.
[x] I believe in ghosts.
[X] I am online 24/7, even as an away message.
[X] I’ve not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class.

[X] I can’t sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[x] I am really ticklish.
[X] I love white chocolate
[ ] I bite my nails.
[] I play video games.
[x] I’m good at remembering names.
[X] I’m good at remembering dates.
[x] I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life

Laziness,

too lazy to blog nowadays. My life is too big of a secret... welll sorta. Its either you know it alllll, or know nothing. Alll I know is, I'm in this state where..... I'm fckn clueless. As always.

Over and over and fuckn over again,

frustrating as FUUUH

Women of awwlllll types,

Ms. Drama Queen loves a challenge and only likes dating bad boys, unavailable men and players. She thinks that love is supposed to be a challenge and is constantly pursuing dead end relationships that result in her being rejected. She believes that she has to do something over the top to win a man’s heart, when all she needs to do is be herself.

Ms. Second Place allows herself to be put in second place to everything else in her man’s life. She may be second to his wife, his career, or his friends. She isn’t a priority, she knows it, and she lives with it. She has forgotten what a special person she is, so she thinks she has to settle for second, when she deserves first place.

Ms. Bag Lady carries around a load of emotional “baggage” and she lets her old emotions adversely affect her new relationships. She let’s her unresolved problems from the past ruin her present and future. Because she’s been treated so poorly, she doesn’t realize how wonderful and deserving of love she truly is.

Ms. Mom dates men whose lives are “under construction” and she makes it her responsibility to solve their problems. She doesn’t know how to stop mothering a man and let him stand on his own two feet. Instead, she needs to apply that nurturing approach to her own life. He already has a mother. All the right man needs from her is a significant other.

Ms. Anaconda kills her relationships by wrapping herself around a man until she suffocates him. She smothers a relationship by being too needy, too demanding, and too overbearing. She thinks she has to hold on to a man like her life depends on it because she doesn’t realize that she is strong and smart enough to stand on her own.

Ms. Independent has been burned in love before so she won’t let anyone get close to her for fear of getting hurt again. She would rather be alone than risk rejection. When she realizes that letting her guard down doesn’t mean being taken advantage of, she can allow her inner light to shine, and men will flock to it.

Ms. Rose Colored Glasses won’t see the truth about the man she’s dating or what’s wrong with their relationship. She just keeps on going like nothing is wrong until she crashes into reality. Her optimism is helpful when applied to other areas of her life. But in love, it creates a blind spot that hides the truth she doesn’t realize she is strong enough to face.

Ms. Sex Machine settles for physical and sexual intimacy when what she really wants is a relationship and emotional intimacy. She uses sex as a weapon to manipulate men and get what she wants (except a relationship!). She thinks she has to give away her most prized possession to buy a man’s love and attention, when all she needs to do is allow her great personality to shine, and men will want to know more.

Ms. Perfect is so caught up in a never-ending cycle of perfection and self-improvement that she has no time for a relationship. She is too uptight to let go and have fun on a date, and she rarely finds a man she thinks is “good enough” for her. When she realizes that she is already everything a man could want, she can finally sit back and start enjoying life

Ms. Soul Mate believes that life doesn’t exist outside of dating so she wants every man she dates to be “the one.” She doesn’t know how to just enjoy dating a man while it lasts, and admit when there isn’t a future for the relationship. One day she will find “the one.” She just needs to take her time and wait for a man who is deserving of her love and commitment.

Slut,

the trendy way of going.
frm, connies.

Typography,

Typography from Ronnie Bruce on Vimeo.

Niagra Falls in Motion

Niagara Falls in Motion from Matthew Wartman on Vimeo.

The PEN Story.

Continue,

to fail in precalc. Continue to add more on the list. Continue to bond more w/ the girls. To gain weight. To drink more coffee. To get darker. To shop every week. To break hearts, (not even possible bc they're all heartless asshhhhmoles). To take advantage of my texting.


Most amazingly, to continue to bump into the kind of 'nice' guys, 'bad' guys, 'clueless' guys. I'm having a difficult time distinguishing types of guys from another. Breaking em into more categories, more specific.

Oh how I hate being the secret l-o-v-e-r.

In control?

2's company, 3's a crowd. 4,





Liar liar, pants on fire.

BECAUSE,

Im hurt that Im here for you yet you push me away. Geez, I aint gna be mean right now. Whatevers. I'll give you your time and space alone, for... lets saaaay. A reallly long while. After alll, you dnt need me. Theres the top people for ya, and I'm waaay last down on the list.





Today, got back recent test, -__-. Fail, again. After, Starbucks, L&L's, picnic@Cataldi. What, an experience. Thx, sugg, A.

Independence Day

Fireworks,

are imaginary.

Most people don't know, I don't watch/look @fireworks anymore. Sure they're pretty. But if they don't mean anything. I refuse to even look @them. Sure I'm weird. But I got my own reasons. Pictures, sure. But reality. Like the 4th of July typa sht. Like today for example... no thanks. So until it means something.... Until its w/ someone, anyone BUT my parents. Someone that won't ruin it for me....

Kitty Kat - Beyonce

Mm, that typa butterfly. Little kittykkkkkat ;-*

No strings attached,

Becos' you got another. Also becos' I'm jst the 2nd choice. Mostly becos' you is boyfriend number2.

"And I eat men like air"
-Sylvia Plath

Highlighter!

Someone that would find these for me, I'd prove to you how good I am in bed. You'd getta see how good I am I sleeeeeping =P
Teeheee


Highlight what you’ve done:

I miss somebody right now.
I dont watch TV these days.
I wear glasses or contact lenses.
I love to play video games. I dnt even own any*
I’ve tried marijuana.
I have been in a threesome.
I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.
I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.
I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
I’m totally smart. B]
I’ve broken someone’s bones.
I’m paranoid sometimes.
I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
I need money right now.
I love sushi.
I talk really, really fast.
I have long hair.
I have lost money in Las Vegas.
I have at least one sibling.
I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
I couldn’t survive without Caller ID.
I like the way I look.
I am usually pessimistic.
I have a lot of mood swings.
I have a hidden talent.
I’m always hyper no matter how much sugar I have.
I have a lot of friends.
I am currently single.
I have pecked someone of the same sex.
I enjoy talking on the phone.
I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
I love to shop.
I enjoy window shopping.
I would rather shop than eat.
I don’t hate anyone.
I’m a pretty good dancer. =)
I’m completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
I have a cell phone.
I believe in God.
I watch MTV on a daily basis.
I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
I’ve rejected someone before.
I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
I want to have children in the future.
I have changed a diaper before.
I’ve called the cops on a friend before.
I’m not allergic to anything. Maybe chlorine, Im not even sure, its a SOMETIMES thing
I have a lot to learn.
I have been with someone at least 10 years older or younger.
I am shy around the opposite sex.
I have tried alcohol before.
I have made a move on a friend’s significant other or crush in the past.
I own the “South Park” movie.
I would die for my best friends.
I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.
I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it.
I am happy at this moment.
I’m obsessed with guys. Not even, jst hella problems*
I study for tests most of the time.
I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I’ve ever met.
I am comfortable with who I am right now.
I have more than just my ears pierced.
I walk barefoot wherever I can.
I have jumped off a bridge.
I love sea turtles.
I spend ridiculous money on makeup.
I plan on achieving a major goal/dream.
I’m proficient in a musical instrument.
I worked at McDonald’s restaurant.
I hate office jobs.
I love sci-fi movies.
I think water rules.
I want to go to college out of state.
I like sausages.
I love kisses.
I usually like covers better than originals.
I can pick up things with my toes.
I can’t whistle. A little bit*
I can move my tongue in waves, much like a snakes slither.
I have ridden/owned a horse.
I still have every journal I’ve ever written in.
I talk in my sleep.
I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.
Climbing trees is a brilliant past-time.
I have jazz in my blood.
I wear a toe ring.
I have a tattoo.
I can’t stand at LEAST one person that I work with.
I am a caffeine junkie.
I cosplay or know what cosplaying is.
I have been to over 15 conventions.
I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical the better.
I’m an artist.
I only clean my room when necessary.
I like a person of the same sex.
I love being happy.
I am an adrenaline junkie.

Blogsecret.

4826.) Stop looking at me like you love me, when you do it to everyone else.
4806.) I'm so glad you blew me off. It gave me a chance to think about who you really are and why you weren't worth my time in the first place. You are self-centered, egotistical, materialistic and immature. My only regret is having wasted one minute on your pathetic existence.
4777.) I hate how I only love you and want you when you're away from me, because every time we hang out all we do is have sex, and after that I just want to leave your place because I find you an awful conversationalist and human being.

4760.) Wearing high heels makes me feel powerful.
4739.) I've forgiven you one too many times.
4730.) you're quite confusing. if you don't want me anymore, just have the initiative to leave. don't make me believe in false hopes. i hate you.
4723.) I tell everyone I don't like you, and you're not right for me. But the truth is, I think about you constantly. All the time.
4709.) Sometimes, I get scared of myself & how mean I can get.
4690.) I study for 30 minutes, and have a break for 2 hours.
4580.) My best friend makes me feel like a failure.
1165.) My iPod knows me better than anyone else.
2482.) I'm scared as hell we will drift apart this summer.
3887.) Love isn't real.

Sweet sixteen,

was yesterday.

Thx for the ones that did not flake. Thanks for the best. More pictures up laters, <3

Cos' I dnt need

another nga to complete me.

Explorers

(via coketalk)

I am wild. I am not crazy. There is a difference.

The stupid can’t see the difference, the inhibited deny the difference, and the authorities just don’t give a fuck about the difference — but the difference is everything.

Wild or crazy. At the extremes of sex, drugs, and rock and roll — anything worth doing, really — you’ll find only these two flavors. They are the chocolate and vanilla of passion. The yin and yang of sin.

Wild explores. Crazy escapes.

Wild is beautiful. Crazy is broken.

Wild seeks enlightenment. Crazy seeks annihilation.

Know the difference. Be aware of the difference. Embrace wild, and send crazy packing.

Savor a savage fuck. Sample a heroic dose. Enjoy any raw and filthy moment of human vulnerability your heart desires, but always ask yourself: are you consciously seeking enlightenment or are you seeking to annihilate your consciousness?

If you don’t know the answer, get the fuck out of the room.

If you’re trying to escape, stop what you’re doing. Get help.

If you’re trying to explore, smile with your soul and take every inch of the experience as deeply as you possibly can.

And no matter what, don’t fucking judge — blowing a fat line of cocaine off a rock hard cock in a Vegas bathroom can be just as valid an exploration of consciousness as dropping acid in the desert with a tantric drum circle of naked hippies.

You don’t need to be burning incense for it to qualify as a religious experience.

You don’t even need a god.

All you need is a brain and a battle-cry:

Bitch, be wild. Don’t be crazy.

Longest word,

in the dictionary. Idk, I was bored.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Longest_word_in_English

Places,

like this, exists? Boy oh boy >;P

Summer school 09

yesterday;@inde. Room, m33. I dropped off by D building. Vivian hung up on me. So I was lost, woke tums up to ask for directions. Asked around, and thank god I bumped into someone w/ the same classroom. Tina and rachel's txts company. Sat in the back w/ vivian. no id, no book -___-. boring classs. old black man teaching, cant understand sht. got out @1130. yogurt twist after class. then back to inde. armani dropped by, barcode. long day, library. Oh, and I forgot, met people I didnt ever expect to meat. Exes, ew. hella hw. still dnt gotta book. I will not mention the assholes i always run into. No hints either, it'd be too obvious.

Birthday list,

birthdaysex(girlversion).mp3, To ladies, c(=


Jstkeeedings! I'll be very happy if you just drop by w/ a surprise, lika lapdance<3
Buuuuuuuuuuuut, I'd be happier if there was additional shit added to it.

I don't ask for much,
F21, Express, H&m, Starbucks, Vsecret, UO, Bags are cute. Earrings and bracelets(=. I can't seem to find any cute gladiators, size 5 1/2-6. Shirts XS-S. Pants, XS-S. Shorts, jeanshorts whatever shorts, since its summer! Dude, I'd fuckn RAPE you if you got me a wii set, w/ mariokart wii<3! Desserts are the easy way out. Or buy me my favorite icecream, run it over to me. And make sure its not melted yet, teehee. Whatever works, as long as you can make me smile, nobody gets hurt.

For the birds, you fuckn tease, -__-

Status: Take me out, figure out my favorite drink, and surprise me to a place ive never been


my (12:00:19 PM): =]
my (12:00:23 PM): lets go out
my (12:00:26 PM): to starbucks
my (12:00:30 PM): get u somethign with carmel
my (12:00:33 PM): then take u somewheren ice
TLEX625 (12:00:50 PM): =D!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1
my (12:00:55 PM): NOT
TLEX625 (12:00:55 PM): IF YOU SAY SYKE
TLEX625 (12:00:58 PM): i will kill you
TLEX625 (12:01:00 PM): -___-
my (12:01:25 PM): HAHAHAHAHAAA
my (12:01:27 PM): <3


Gr.

THEE best way,

http://lifestyle.msn.com/relationships/articlematch.aspx?cp-documentid=18728068>1=32023
Awhhhhhhhhss<3!

Sorry girls,

for being stupid and not taking your advice and not listening. Idk whys, its not like I enjoy hurting myself. Its not like I enjoy lowering myself, my standards. I feel so dirty, so wrong. So... not me(?)

*hug, cyber

Unless you can make it happen, don't JUST say it.


AWHHH<333!!!

one thousand one,

things i want ina lover

#497 Someone who will match their tie to my dress.

^, LAUGH THE MUUUDAFUCCKN OUT LOUDS


I never got the chance to dance in this dress, it was supposed to be for militaryball. But, I rocked it out anyways.

Tumble

"Whatever you give a woman, she will make it greater. If you give her sperm, she’ll give you a baby. If you give her a house, she’ll give you a home. If you give her groceries, she’ll give you a meal. If you give her a smile, she’ll give you her heart. She multiplies and enlarges what is given to her. So, if you give her any crap, be ready to receive a ton of shit."
— (VIA SOOPERLOUIE)
^torria's

Damn, everybody uses tumblr nowadays. But remaking an entire new blog. Ew, no thanks.

Attempt,

Becos' I would know. *rolls eyes.


Friday, first day of freedom '09 Hoho, Dinhdinh, Lele

Maybe

it is true, im caught up on you.


Oh reallly nows, ;-*
Haha, syyke! first day of summer, its so pretty out. wendy was supposed to come over and swim. but no ride. soo tooka walk out later on. so chiiilllll, boring.

The crab, and is true.

My Twittascope: Cancer
Hanging out with your friends today might be the perfect antidote to an uneasy emotional situation. You may be pulled in two directions now as you want to create a higher level of intimacy in your life. But as your vulnerability increases, a fear of being hurt can provoke you to retreat into your private world where you feel safe. Casual interactions in a supportive social setting provide you with a comfortable alternative. Friday, June 12, 2009

Final day,

No tears, suprsingly. It hasn't exactly hit me. Feels like every other day, welll sorta. A- on my math final. hella bombed my history final, not so sure what the grade was tho. Rachel and Vicki made me a poster. Wendy, Victoria, and Quynhh wrote me a note<3. Didn't go by creek today. Bc I decided to spend my last day w/ the people here. After school, chilled and hugs and pictures. Water balloons. Golf carts shooing us off campus. Walks to Monterey road for subway and starbucks. argie's w/ irie wendy and jt. qcup. photohunt. home. got locked out, park. twitter. home. sat. it was a long day today, dont feel like typing it allll out. But i realized something tho. its about you, boy.

One more.

TLEX625 (8:16:42 PM): Helllla gonna miss
TLEX625 (8:16:51 PM): ill be wearing waterproof mascara tmrws
TLEX625 (8:16:52 PM): hahaha
TLEX625 (8:16:57 PM): and my dads making me go
toria a secret (8:17:48 PM): ): grades? friends? Fucccck whos gnna be the little freak at dances
toria a secret (8:17:59 PM): and sticking her thumb behind my butt
toria a secret (8:18:01 PM): and telling me
toria a secret (8:18:03 PM): about so many boys
toria a secret (8:18:06 PM): AND her laugh
TLEX625 (8:18:06 PM): Hahah, HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
TLEX625 (8:18:09 PM): <33333!
toria a secret (8:18:14 PM): AND your stupid like twirl when you turn around
toria a secret (8:18:14 PM): :D
TLEX625 (8:18:21 PM): Heeey!<3

I willl miss.

Phi, h.

Bestfriend, i miss you. And heres a tip. Do not. EVER cry for any reason. for anyone. Do not, EVER let anyone see that you have a weak side. Bc you know yourself you'r better than that. And I somewhat blame myself for not seeing you as often anymore. I really really miss you. And love you more than anything in my life. No body can replace ya<3 Fuck the others that has NEVER heard of 'love in this club' Sheeshers. My bestfriend can get her freak onnnn! And I didnt get a chance w/ ya. Hahah! Miss you, x's a millltrillgazillion. I wont be able to hang w/ you over summer. And we cant celebrate our birthdays together this year. Suucksass. =(

Sometimes a cloud is just a cloud

type love, take me to paradisefalls.


'you'r not the only reason why i smile but you'r definitely my favorite.'
Mm, that never gets old.

Conniecouture.

I miss her. Oh and no shame, =)

Speak dirty to me,

“Did you ever notice that people give up on love as they get older? When you’re a little girl, all you want to do is fall in love. Then when you’re a teenager, every guy you meet you think is ‘the one’. Then when you’re an adult and you have been hurt from the breakups as a teen, you’re not interested in love anymore. You just don’t want to be alone, so you settle for someone you might even know isn’t your soul mate. I know so many adults that aren’t truly where they want to be. I just try to think about what they might have went through to make them settle for second best, and I hope that doesn’t happen to me.”
^,Yea, I totally gitit.


Because they are one of those people that knew every single little detail of my sophomore year. Annnd, who saw me topless a million times over swim season<3

Poopie list!

Vivian finds the most hilarious shit ever.

Poopie list!
Ghost poopie: the kind where you feel the poop come out, but there is no poopie in the toilet
•clean poopie: the kind where you poop it out, see it in the toilet, but there is nothing on the toilet paper.
•wet poopie: the kind where you wipe your butt 50 times & it still feels unwiped, so you have to put some toilet paper between your butt & your underwear so you won't ruin them with stains.
•second wave poopie: this happens when your done pooping & you've pulled your pants up to your knees, & realize that you have to poop some more.
•pop a vein in your forehead poopie: the kind where you strain so much to get it out, you practically have a stroke.
•lincoln long poopie: the kind of poop that is so huge you're afraid to flush without first breaking it into little pieces with the toilet brush.
•gassy poopie: its noisy, that everyone within earshot is giggling
•drinkers poopie: the kind of poop you have in the morning after a long night of drinking. Its most noticeable trait is the skid marks on the bottom of the toilet.
•corn poopie: self explanatory.
•gee I wish I could poop: the kind where you want to poopie but all you do is sit on the toilet and fart a few times.
•spinal tap poopie: that's where it hurts so badly coming out, you'd swear it was leaving you sideways.
•wet cheeks poopie (the power dump): the kind that comes out so fast, your butt cheeks get splashed with water.
•the dangling poopie: this poop refuses to drop in the toilet even though you are done poopie-ing it. You just hope a shake or two will cut it loose.
•surprise poopie: you're not even at the toilet because you are sure are about to fart but *oops* a poop!

Not so sure,

if I ever uploaded this;

Tuuuuttts

tuttifruttaaay! Was yum. Day w/ danmeowmeow, rach, irie, and wendys. ^^, guess which one's mine, =) teehee, hint: Im a fatass! Early day todays. Only 3 more days of andrew hill. Of the 'supposed to be' fresh start. of the memories of two years. of the people who accepted me for who i was and am. of the insiders of my life, who knows every single bit of it. of the freaky times on THAT dance floor ;-*. of alla the bitxhy gossip. the tears. the inside jokes. the hates. the loves.
thas looking in the past and present....
in the future: finals, ew!


^Because she's like my personal diary<3 and I love her t'death!

Sometimes love, comes around

Independence last dance 09

Was funfunfun. Sorry for the irritation I caused. i know I didnt listen. Only 2-3 dances* But see, if I dont stop dancing, then it still counts as uno right? Soooo, pick up connnie @her place. Hella texted earlier to figure out her outfit. Met Armani first time came by and picked up my id for the dance during 5th. 6th period pigged out w/ the babes. Free dress day friday. I cant believe I hadda pay $ for a new id card for the dance. Soooo got ready and everythaang. Showed up, met up w/Armani. and Ben. Saw bestfriend<3! But she hella ran off w/ some guy. Whatthez! Danced w/ tumz the whole night... well, mostly? One slow song. single.mp3. 'hey, wanna do me a favor? can you dance w/ my friend?' c[; Girlllll you know eye-eye-eye, i've been feinding. 3 hours of non stop dancing and sweating and burning my fatass calories off. Water fountain trips x's a million. Anonymous cuties. Non-anonymous freakaleeek. Armani was helllllaaaa mad rolling. Hahaha! But of course, real freaks dance sober.


But Im hella sore.

SLIDE DOWN THE POLE.MP3!

roc - beyonce
No, they did not play this @the dance.